A couple of things has happen since last time i posted. O have been having a lot of down moments and i have been trying to dealing with them.
I have been thinking of therapy but somehow i make myself believe that its not worth it. That the therapist will believe its normal . that my problems are not really because of depression and anxiety. I do know that i have social anxiety. I am trying to break from that on my own since honestly it has to do more with me then therapy can help. I have always been a shy person. I dont know. What do you think. Should i go to a therapist and get it over with?
I swear not going to college is a little regret im having. Unfortunately i have no idea what to attend college for. If i actually knew what career i wanted maybe i would of applied and been almost complete with it.
Its a hard decision for me. But i know that one day i will attend college and graduate. Lets hope that day is soon so i can finally make my parents proud.
Of coarse its super HOT and humid outside. In my room however it feels super cold. It feels fantastic to me!! I love when my room feels so chilly. Wearing sweaters every night and enjoying a movie feels so good. Honestly it makes me feel good. Im in my happy place.
My depression have been kicking in very hard lately. It had been very calm and quiet this couple of months. This last week have been hard for me. At night every time I close my eyes all this negative and bad imagines come flooding into my mind. As much as I try to stop them from coming every night its impossible. It feels impossible but somehow I know that they are true. They are not going to come true.
One day I know that ill get the best help that I can get. until ill have to suffer everything and make it day by day. with all the positivity and good vibes I can get.
Day 14- 3 Healthy Habits
- Drink Plenty Of Water
- I Don’t Eat meat Often
- For Snack I eat fruit or some little snack
Not a lot of healthy habits right?
Day 13- Whats in my fridge
Well since I still live with my parents the things in the fridge are about everypne here.
- Ice cream
And many many more things
Day 12 – Favorite Childhood Books
- Clifford Books
- Dr.suess,s Books
- If you give a mouse a cookie
- Curious George
- Goodnight Moon
- Where the wild things are
- Junie B jones Books
- Arthurs Books
- The Very hungry Caterpillar
- Amelia Bedelia
- The rainbow Fish
- Love you forever
- Frog and Toad are Friends
- Are you my mother
This are a couple of books that I have read and still read once a while in my free time. Of coarse now with my young little brother I get to read them to him.